For years, I chased something I couldn’t name—a magnetic longing for the feminine that followed me from childhood crushes to marriage, from infatuation to spiritual ache. I thought it was about a woman. I thought it was about sex. I thought it would go away once I found “the one.”
It didn’t.
This is the story of that longing. The shame it carried, the fantasies it fueled, and the fire that finally refined it.
“The world was on fire, and no one could save me but you…”
Chris Isaak’s Wicked Game isn’t just a song—it’s a mirror reflecting the deep ache of the wounded masculine heart. The desperate longing. The belief that she is the answer, that she holds the key to salvation. I spent years chasing that illusion, convinced that the right woman could fill the void inside me. But the truth? She was never the source—only a reflection.
This is the journey men must take: out of emotional childhood, through the wilderness of uncertainty, into the solid ground of mature, grounded masculinity. Most men avoid it, choosing instead to repeat the cycle—cling, chase, resent, withdraw. And when she pulls away? He assumes she’s broken, avoidant, or incapable of love. But the real reason she’s distant? She’s exhausted by his need for her to be his emotional home.
If you’re tired of playing the wicked game, this is your call to step into something real.
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Brothers around the world are experiencing their disconnected wives and this painful feeling of disconnection that it triggers within them when they see her on her cell or mobile phone for hours at a time. Why won’t she get off of it?
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